I can't help feeling that I will be disappointed. That the things I want won't come my way. I find it funny that I started my week thinking that something great was going to happen. That I would have something to get excited about. I realize that the week is not yet over but I'm ending my Friday feeling very defeated.
I decided to channel all my nervous energy into redoing my bedroom. I figure this is something that will help bring about positive change and renewal. I started the other day by going to Bed, Bath and Beyond and purchasing a frame for a poster print I bought about a year ago but never framed and hung and a big storage bin for some of my winter clothes. I also bought a shoe rack for the disorganized shoe mound in my closet. Next, when I get back from vacation, will be the purchase of the way-too-expensive-but-oh-so-cathartic quilt and sham set. After that, maybe a chair and a bookcase, a rug, and some other fun things.
Maybe some major reorganization is necessary right now. Today at work I had had enough with my messy inbox so I cleared and organized the entire thing. I'm hoping some of that will translate to my head and my frayed nerves.
Now I think I'm off to organize my itinerary for my vacation. Onward! It will be OK. No matter what happens.